one of my friend said that my status now is "single but not available"... ya, this is true... so do him... 1.46am now... doing nothing... thinking rubbish... and the Internet connection is very very poor... Maxis Broadband, i dont encourage people use this... i encountered this problem since last week, i made complaint and they said will settle it for me... but i dont think they settle my problem... once connected, in less than one minute, it will disconnect... previously the line was very very ok and fast... just dont know what happened this whole week...

single but not available... the feeling is just...........dont know how to explain... im moody this whole week... i also dont know why... just stay at home... really hoping to go out and have a movie or what... even wanted to go shopping... the mood for doing these was there, but the mood for going out with other people wasnt there...

guy A, my only very normal friend, last saturday he came to find me... i was watching tv that time and my handphone was in my room... during commercial break i went in my room and i saw got five missed called from this guy... due to out of credit, i miss call him back and expected him to call me back and he did call me back... guess what he said...? he said he was at my house there already, waiting downstairs... i was so surprised and i dont have the mood to go out with him and the excuse that i gave him was my parents went out already and left only me and my sister at home, i cant go out and let my sister alone at home... he suggested to bring my sister along and i told him that my sister is sleeping and my sister was really sleeping that time... it was about 9 something at night... then i ask him to go back, i dint even went down and talk to him... i just told him to go back in the call... am i bad...?

guy B, one of my old old friend which also my primary and secondary school friend but long time never contact each other already... got back in touch with him recently through friendster n MSN... before mooncake festival and also before my final exam, this guy did ask me whether my family got buy mooncake or not for mooncake festival... of course, and he said he is selling mooncake also and ask whether im free on a particular day to meet up and he can give me the brochure... i told him i was busy preparing for my final exam and most probably can only meet after my final exam... for your information my last paper was on 12th and mooncake festival was on 14th... that time i really dont know that the gap in between is so short, it's only two days in between... during my exam, he did MSN me and ask me when i'll be free to meet up and i told him the same thing, after my final exam... till i finished my final exam and mooncake festival was over, he still ask me to meet up... previously i thought he is rushing me to buy mooncake from him, but mooncake festival is already over... he ask me to meet up again and i rejected him... the reason is i dont have the mood to go out with any other guys...

after rejecting people, i feel that im very bad and i made an arrangement to meet them up... guy A... im supposed to meet him on 17th at about 4 something in the afternoon because he off that time... he told me not to prepare until he call me because he might be busy... i waited till 3pm and i went to watch tv and left my handphone in my room... at about 3.30pm i saw got three missed call from him and i call him back but he did not pick up the call... i call for two times also nobody pick up the call... so i send him a SMS asking whether our plan is still on or not and he did not reply... at 4.30pm i call him again and he dint pick up for the first time and the second time i call, he said he is busy that time... i then send him a SMS again saying that since he busy, just cancel our plan... at 5pm he called me and ask said he was busy just now and ask whether the plan is on or not... i told him no, too late already and i dont feel like going out at that time... and i ask him to go back... for guy B, i'll be meeting him together with one of my friend for lunch on 22nd...

am i very bad...? i feel that i am very bad... keep rejecting people... haiz... single but not available, mayb this is the reason why i reject people... if it is HIM, i wouldnt be thinking too much and i wont reject him... but it's not... too bad... supposed can meet him on 14th but last minute cancel bacause his boss called him to get something from him... nevermind... there's next time... and next time would be better... im sure...

by Adrienne
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